burnout.
I am tired. drained. exhausted. weak. on Every single aspect. I silently admit that i cannot fight anymore. i am down and going out..
Physically: headache everyday. it causes me to walk around in a daze. 4-5 hours sleep..my body is exhausted. 14 hour days are killing me. I want to stay home when i get home. I want to curl up and die..
Mentally: brain is still sharp but working hard to stay that way. Its hard to focus at work and keep up at a pace that i demand from myself. With everything that i do coming from mental strength, this one is really taking a toll on decision making.
Emotionally: short tempered, giving up, dont have the mental power to fight through anything anymore. I just want to give up on everything. It is hard getting a handle on my emotions. Whatever i feel comes out. I get especially ticked or angry.
Spiritually: need a break. soon.
with just everything crashing down. This is my breaking point. I have kept it together well and compacted for a good while. But just with mounting responsibilities and agendas…it doesnt end. Forgive me if i have hurt you. ignore me if i have been unreasonable. forget me if i have been rude.
fight on..float on…stand strong.
guess i am down to just floating on now..
float on till June. 104 business days and counting..
